Saturday, May 31, 2008

Spirals and spirals

Imagine a spiral a few radials wide; just barely large enough so that it would be easily recognizable as a spiral.  The direction that it originates from isn't particularly relevant.  Now, picture an identical spiral alongside it, and draw the radials out a few more grades, and repeat that once more.  You'll have in your mind a set of three spirals, each of varying size and complexity, and we'll be using these images as something to pull from.

The largest and most complicated spiral is a human being.  The length, depth, and curvature of the spiral are representational of the complexity underlying man; conscious thought, rationality, opposable thumbs, hair, those hairs in your throat that propel food down into your gut.  The next spiral, the one of middling size and complexity, is representative of the animal.  Although for the sake of the coming argument I'll be using this to symbolize mammals primarily, it also represents middle-hierarchy creatures, like lizards and amphibians.  The smallest of the three spirals is the spiral of the single-celled organism; bacteria, (sort of)viruses, paramecium, amoebae and so on - stuff that is, in all likelihood, covering your fleshy body as you read this, but things that most people don't give a great deal of thought.

The graphic of a spiral itself is used to indicate that the three levels of complexity are all essentially the same sort of thing; DNA coding.  At which level of complexity does the necessity for protection/conservation develop?  Most people would assume that humans are within this category, and as a human, I would be inclined to agree, as if I was getting beat up I'd want somebody to say, "Hey! Don't beat him up!" and maybe punch the asshole or something and kick his teeth in, but I'm getting sidetracked.  Aside from the anecdotal datas that are my life experience, I've done little research into the next sentence, but I'm pretty sure that it applies to everybody.  Animals should be protected, too.  We have conservatories dedicated to creatures of the wild, laws preventing us not only from scourging them from the planet but even from beating them unnecessarily.  I'm not sure how you define "Beating an animal of necessity," but it certainly sounds pretty legalese to me, so we'll go with that.  So what about bacteria?  Viruses? Yeast (Saccharomyces cerevisiae)?

I was watching one of the few acceptable programs on the History Channel earlier in the week, and the episode dealt with how bread was made.  Something that struck me was the literal manufacture of yeast; essentially, a big vat of sugary water is left to brew, and the yeast bacteria develops rather quickly on the surface.  The water is later drained, and the yeast is harvested in a variety of forms.  Some companies dry, freeze, and then box the yeast, forcing it to go dormant until it is awakened by the heat of an oven.

Operating under the assumption that most second-spiral creatures aren't any more conscious than first-spiral organisms, why are so many more rights and privileges awarded to them?  I recently asked a friend this question, and he told me that it might be because it's easier to sympathize with something like a dog.  I see a lot of sense in that; most pet owners personify the pets that they have, giving them characteristics that they certainly don't have, but seem to.  I'm sure my dog is of average intelligence for a dog, but since I try and hold everything around me to the same lofty standards as I hold myself, I think he's pretty stupid.  When he's pushed out of my room when I become busy with something, the sorrow and misery in his eyes at the ejection is choking.  I find this to be irritating, as I know he isn't sad.  It irritates me because I imagine he is sad, and this taints my actions towards him.

So are animal rights activists unable to understand that an animal's behavior is a systematic, near-mechanical, and instinctual thing?  Pretty similar - exactly the same, really - as bacteria, viruses, and yeast cells.  So why doesn't anybody fight for the yeast?  They're arguably treated worse than chickens in de-chickening houses and cows in butchery pens.  At least those creatures get to die; yeast gets packaged up and shipped off, maybe to be made into beer or an undercooked loaf of bread in your neighbor's house.

I am left with two potential conclusions.  First, that all animals should be viewed as being more simple organisms - eliminating the need for three spirals altogether, and making things pretty much "human" and "something other than human".  Imaging the world as anything but that at this point is really kind of naive.  The second conclusion is that, as animals are now completely indistinguishable in purpose from their more simplistic cousins, they should be farmed as viciously and uncaringly as the bacteria that makes our yogurt, beer, bread, medicine and anything else you care to think of.  If Man cannot effectively control the breeding and population of a beast, then it ought to be culled like the HIV virus.  Raccoons?  Awesome hats!  Dogs and cats? Permitted due to the psychological advantage given to their tyrants.  Whales?  Oil for lamps!  Frogs? Burn them all.  Lizards, flies and most rodents?  Ship them directly into the sun.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Utility of pr0ns

This is a message I sent to a self-proclaimed "radical feminist," whom had the passage " You don't use porn. I'm serious that I really do not want to get close to people who embrace how the sex industry exploits and harms women." in her profile.  I felt the need to query. 

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First: I'm going to assume that the questions that I'll be forced to answer in order to send you this message pertain to either my valuation of trust, love, or some other aspect of dating and how it would effect us should be pursue such a course. However, I have no real intention of ever communicating with you again outside of this query (nothing personal, but hey, who knows?), so I imagine that forcing me to communicate very specific concepts with you is kind of silly. I read it as: the only way that I'm going to speak with you is if I know exactly how you feel about something, and if you're not willing to answer those questions, then you're not worth my time. I guess that's your decision, though. Your questions may have absolutely nothing to do with what I mentioned above, but you'd definitely be the first person I've seen on this site that didn't. 

Anyway. I was wondering; is it possible for pornographic materials to be used as a constructive tool instead of the vile and base thing that they are perceived as? I tried to phrase that in a neutral fashion but may have failed.

I ask for a couple of reasons, but first and foremost because I was wondering if you, a self-proclaimed radical feminist, could enlighten me. I do not mean that in a condescending fashion. One of the ways that I view pornography is as, so to speak, a means to an end. As I haven't slept in a long time, I'm having trouble coming up with a solid metaphor, so I'll be blunt; its drastically easier to view women outside, above and beyond any sexual bounds if certain criteria are met. I consider myself to have a rather low sex-drive; however, it is difficult to ignore various urges and impulses that I take as biological. However, after sex or a session with pornography. this impulses are reduced dramatically to the point where they don't really enter my awareness for a long period of time. 

I recognize the damage that the pornography industry inflicts upon women (and, really, I imagine the men as much if in a different direction), although it partially helps to release myself from various aspects of my psyche that I'd imagine do without. I view it as a means to an end, so to speak, and I guess my question to you (after three unnecessarily long paragraphs) is this: is using the digital incarnation of naked women as exploitive as it would be imagining similar things during a conversation that is steered in a sexual direction? ie, viewing women in real life as objects.

A final thought to consider. It isn't one that I necessarily agree with, but it was a concept injected into a conversation a friend and I were having. The issue is that our school newspaper was running an ad on the back cover, full-size, for a local strip club. I took issue with this for the same reasons that I imagine that you would, but my friend asked an interesting question: isn't anyone on stage, film or print being exploited in some way? Nobody gives a shit about the actual human that's delivering stand-up comedy, only his jokes. The same goes for characters in movies, sitcoms, or television shows. They're being objectified as equally as women in a strip club in a way. I wondered if you'd care to comment on that.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Fate is for Faggots

The following is a message I sent to somebody over OkCupid today while I was bored. The user in question had the line, "I don't believe in fate" in the first few lines of their profile, while in their Religion section of their quick-facts was listed, "Christianity and somewhat serious about it." I decided to send them a message inquiring about this and, hopefully, I've made clear the why of it.

The person's response is in italics.

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Title: So if there's no fate ...

Body: How does God know what his plan for you is?

I’m sure you have heard the fraise before “It will happen if it was meant to be.” Well I disagree, and that is why I highly discourage the whole idea of fate. Maybe I don’t like it for the simple reason that I lack control. Or the idea that I can’t prevent bad things from happening by the choices I make. I want to live my life the way I choose, not have it predestined for me. I believe people have to MAKE things happen if they want them too. They can’t just go on living saying it will happen if it was meant to be. If everyone said that where would we be today!? People need to take responsibility over your life and do what needs to be done. We can't wait for fait to chime in, if we do we’ll always be one step behind.

Yes, I do believe God can see into your future, but I also believe that you can change that future by the choices you make along the way. God gave us free will, if he made our destiny 100% then we'd have no free will.

In, say, six years, you will likely be in a substantially different place, both emotionally and physically, and perhaps spiritually as well. You might have children, a husband, a career that has nothing to do with your degree, and so on. These various things will happen to you because of either internal or external forces; that is to say, you will enact them intentionally, or items beyond your control will enact them for you. You may not wish to have children, for example, but you might end up being raped and be forced into an unwanted pregnancy. Bear with me, this is going somewhere.

In another six years, that unwanted child may require a journey to the clinic for one of various irrelevant reasons. However, maybe the week before you got into a car accident and, due to a series of unavailable loved ones, you may need to walk to the clinic with your child. On the way there, you might stub your toe, and it would hurt greatly. By virtue of any major Christian concept of God, He will know about this toe-stubbing, and will have known that it would occur before you were born - he would have known about it before Adam and Eve were ejected from the Garden of Eden.

This is the omniscient bit of Judaeo-Christian godhood.

In order for God to have known about this toe-stubbery this long ago, he would require knowledge of several things, which by definition he would have:

First, he would need to have an intimiate understanding of the many, many generations it would take to produce you and, ultimately, your child.

Next, he would require a detailed understanding of your life, including the events the produced your child and eventually forced your walk to the clinic that caused a toe-stubbing.

He would also need to know that there would be a rock, or stony outcropping, or raised sidewalk ledge, or any number of toe-stub-inflicting items in a very specific location; exactly where your toe would be on the day of the trip to the clinic.

In order for God to "see into [your] future," God would need absolute awareness of all of these things. To say that God can tell that you'll get married to boy X and have child Y, but not be able to see that you'll get a nasty toe-bruise on day Z is silly; to a supreme deity that has witnessed the birth and death of tens of billions of people, how is one event much different from another? You might say, "I decided to take my child to the clinic this day," and that would be true. You did decide that. However, if God knew you would be going to stub your toe in the exact moment you did, given the knowledge required to know that, can you really say that you were not predestined to do so?

Choose carefully here; to say that God doesn't know that you'll be stubbing your toe says also that God doesn't know everything, and if God doesn't know everything, then he isn't perfect. And an imperfect God, according to any number of major Christian theologians, is .. not God. To say that God is aware that you’ll be stubbing your toe on that day, as I’ve made the case for above, indicates a detailed knowledge about your life that is, essentially, the same thing as fate.

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Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Though these hands be bloody and cracked,
they be also wonting and stagnant;
the sun falls lightly not
This blood that once carried that sacred fluid,
that giver of charisma and bringer of lightning,
the lightly falling sun has sapped and dried pathways
and left us as wretched, desperate, gone:
what is thought without synapse?
emotion without endorphin?
ambition without drive?

d3lusions

So many like knives they walk,
Sharp and flat, long of stride and angled of tongue;
Their trail wafting, cold and so dextrously-placed --
Calculated coldly with cruel intent to draw blade to flesh,
To crush the self and with intoxicants to drown the lung

So unlike the glare from the edge on the good sun
Are their eyes, so dull and pale these milkwash orbs;
Dead; so far-gone that internal spark, their vehicle driven
Only further in their pursuit in the entrapment of further flesh,
Cast far they can that seductive chord

So few those that resist, so many that end so entangled
Yet with eyes equally as dll as the captor arachnid,
How is better to be hoped for choice but chemical thralldom?
Yet twice-damned the same, be it fated or not --
As livestock to slaughter led

So singly they who defy the Word, who --
By mere alone gaze and very sense of presence,
Render unto new laws of calculation and shatter intention --
They that manage, above and superior to the chemical
-- to not press for undue advantage, yet - leave none to chance

So wrapped in singularity twice-bound we sit, wait --
Yet therein lies the struggle of relinquished solace,
As all movements lead not to nauht, but -- but rather,
To points of origin, forever fleeting from destination,
Leading always up to, as it should not, a cause lost.

Flight

The following is pretty rough. Filing here for later cleanup. I'll have this whole thing behind a cut as soon as I figure out how the hell to do so.

The thoughts that ran through Jeran's mind as he fled were a mystery to him; that he would be thinking of his brother now, as he ran in a near-panic from the beasts of Skyline, confused him. That his mind was able to consider rationally the state of their relationship at a time when his entire body should have been given over to the desperate chase for survival was a marvel to him, although he wasn't sure how particularly pleased that he was that his faculties drifted as such.

Jeran was unsure how long he had been running. The hydraulic thrusters attached to his ankles provided him easily with the energy and extra lift required to maintain the high-velocity speed of his run down the mountainside. As he became aware that his survival was unlikely, the act of enabling duration as opposed to considering duration became critical. Although time was grey and shrouded to him, the horizon and, perhaps safety, was razor-sharp. So too was the face of Mearne, his brother, frozen in that last scowl from a decade prior. The conflict revolved around their father, and the resolution of the estate he'd left for the brothers to divide. Jeran wanted little, and preferring a nomadic lifestyle, cared less for the lands his father had owned. Of his father's leavings, he wanted only the corpse, so that it might be buried in a place of his choosing, high in the mountains and in a place of appropriate dignity for the man he called father.

Five years had Jeran been atop the mountain where he buried his father, naked to the elements, deep within the earth. Much of it had been spent in solitude and silence, clear of mind and thought, free from obligation of anything but the occasional effort placed in survival. Then it came; in a waking dream, Jeran saw the face of Mearne, twisted with rage and malice, the dreadful dead-eye gaze of a younger sibling. As Jeran leapt from boulder to boulder, he took careful aim with his pistol and felled one of the beasts, understanding that though he would not survive, he would not be the only corpse to litter the side of this mountain today. The spray of red blood from the severed cartoid artery arced in a similar fashion to that of Jeram's neck when his brother first threw him down in early attempts to resolve the conflict of the corpse.

'Man,' Mearne said slowly and haggardly as he stood over Jeram, 'was not meant to be lain to lie with beast, to rot as the wood and grass and monster. Man is meant for the skinlabs.' He reached down and lifted Jeram by the throat, his servo-enhanced arms making easy work of the slender frame of Jeram. 'Man must serve in death!'

Jeram struggled feebly in his younger brother's grasp, searching desperately for an opening, and, seeing it in the form of the blade he kept belted at his back, pulled it free and tore into the flesh of Mearne's abdomen. 'We were once more! You've become poisoned,' Jeram panted from the ground as he made his way to his feet and stood in a more defensible position. 'FAKT has destroyed you. Man is more than data, more than binary digits, more than upgrades - man is flesh.'

Jeram tripped on a small outcrop of granite, sending him tumbling down into the foothills of the mountain, breaking his arm and one of the hydraulic thrusters and leaving him bloody and nearly broken. The twisted face of Mearne laughed and contorted in rage in his inner eye, mocking his weakness, his flesh. 'His organs, my life! His brain, my thought capacity! Dear brother, man may be flesh, but man is weak! The flesh holds the secrets, but no man born of womb alone can transcend. Man must have man to grow, to become better, stronger!' Struggling to a stand, Jeram glanced back at the beasts. Instead of falling out of control as he had done, they'd taken to the air, membranous wings unsheathing from slots built next to their arcing spines, and descended upon him rapidly. Carefully placing a hollow-point on the flat surface above one of the beasts single eyes, Jeram leapt further down the mountain, his eyes affixed to the treeline not a hundred yards away.

'The flesh is sacred, Mearne, the meat is not for us! Only the ground and sky may lay claim, and to take it is to be cursed,' Jeram lunged at Mearne with his dagger, aiming for the patellar tendon above his right kneecap so as to cripple him. Mearne's body, amplified by both machine and the generational flesh of their mother and some distant cousin, was quick to identify, adapt and respond to Jeram's attack, and he nimbly retracted the wide leg and twisted his body to bring to bear his spiked left elbow onto Jeram's back, producing a loudly audible cracking sound.

'You do not understand the gifts that God has given us,' Mearne shouted as Jeram fell once more to the ground. 'Why waste what was given? We were meant to harvest the dead, to become better! Transcendance may be attained only by the worthy, and nothing stinking of original birth can attain near what the collection can.' Mearne thrust his closed fist into Jeram's atlas vertebrae, severing his link to the conscious world.

Jeram, covered in blood and the dirt of the mountain, had managed the treeline and quickly scaled an ancient oak, readying himself for the coming wave. There were five beasts moving rapidly towards him, their wings folded back into their slots and their long tusks gleaming with a lust for the kill. Resigning himself to death, Jeram centered himself with finality and quickly empited what remained of his clip into the roving mass of tooth, talon and forked-tongue, felling three but striving clear of two. He could hear the mad, ravening laughter of Mearne as his bullets fell wide of their mark, as if his brother were watching through the eyes of the Skyline monsters.

'I have a surprise for you, dear brother; you've been asleep these long months, and today, for your birthday, I've given you a gift; I've given you father.' Mearne laughed hysterically, the neurotonins that thickened his blood driving mad his wits. 'Soon you shall understand, Jeram, soon - no, no - now!' Mearne tore the various tubes and straps that had held Jeram to the gurney, and using a great and uncharacteristic gentleness to remove the cerebral claw from Jeram's spine. Lifting him over his shoulder, Mearne carried Jeram out of the rust-colored, windowless room, and dumped him unceremoniously on the grassy hillside.

'What,' Jeram started, incredulous and struggling to retain conciousness, 'what madness have you cast upon me? This, this strength, this sharpness, no - you grafted him to me!' Raging, Jeram lunged himself at Mearne but leapt far too high and far to connect, and instead crashed heavily onto the ground.

Cackling with a madness born of neurotonins, Mearne crossed his arms and narrowed his eyes. 'You see, brother, now you see -. Feel the new strength surging through your veins, grasp the new truths surrounding you, understand what it means to be man! What was once weak, dependant upon the lottery of genetics, glaring in physical weakness and mental incompetence, gone! Amplified five, ten, a hundred fold, by the mere loss of a single, worthless, decaying corpse!'

Jeram was stunned, confused, and at a complete loss for reaction. 'You, you - you have defiled the sacred flesh, but yet -' The renewed power and vigour was rippling through him, an ecstacy of super-human senses parading through his blood and brain; the grass was a brilliant, emerald green, the sky is a deep azure blue, and the sun - the sun! Radiating waves of infrared and ultraviolet light cascaded before him and through the atmosphere, radiowaves surging through the stratosphere, x-rays and microwaves bombarding the planet from qasars and pulsars from afar, all now visible to him! As Jeram watched in awe at the newly visible spectrum of waves of all kinds, mathematical formulae danced through his head, the laws binding the physical world together as clear to him now as the hand he held before his face.

'This, all this - all this from one body? Mearne, a single corpse can give a single man all of this?'

'Yes, dear brother, and now you see; although I gave up the glory that surely father was so that you might know the wonders of grafting, imagine what further wonder there can be! Realize now, brother, that this power within you, this new life, this is but one body - the grafting is exponential, limitless! We will be as gods!'

'Yes, brother Mearne, yes, I see now, I understand so clearly how I was mistaken. Embrace me, brother Mearne, that my first new touch might be to that of one of an equal,' Jeram held open his arms, the tips of his fingers visibly shaking and trembling with the raw energy coursing through them. Mearne approached, and pulled his brother close to him. 'Brother, yes, you and I, we can become - anything, even,'

'Brother, enough, you know not your strength, relax your grip,' Mearne struggled in his attempts to free himself from Jeram's grasp, which was enclosing his shoulders and closing yet tighter, the bones of his shoulders being forced from their sockets.

'Even corpses to decay in the earth!' Jeram pulled tighter as the arms of his brother flailed against him, striking him on the spine, the throat, the top of the skull, but to little use; Jeram had embraced him as such so as to restrict the movement of Mearne's arms. Tighter, and tighter yet - Mearne's shoulders, although greatly enhanced through grafting, quickly reached their maximum stress levels and began to crack. Similar effects were occuring along the radial at which Jeram embraced his brother, and within moments, Jeram had collapsed and pulverized the spine of Mearne, leaving him concious but utterly invalid. He carried him then to atop that mountain and buried him alive, his flesh to be grafted to naught but the good, cold earth. He pulled from his body as much of the grafts as he could without killing himself, and buried them at the mountain summit, marking the half-tomb with a marker made of stone, earth and tree.

Fully aware of the knowledge that this was to be the place where he would die, Jeram leapt from the tree and lashed out against the nearest Skyline beast, shattering skull and lung, and grasping and tearing jaw with another hand. Though two were slain with the rapid ease capable only of the grafted, one remained; and one lunged, it's long, sharp and metallic incisors tearing into the flesh of Jeram's throat. As the life-blood of Jeram seeped from his throat and onto the earth, his final thoughts were mixed and confused; pleasure, knowing that his blood, as a result of the grafting, had become highly toxic and would kill the beast, and panicked, as the final images seen with both his outer and inner eyes were that of his brother, smiling, as if he'd somehow extracted revenge.

Monday, April 7, 2008

Hono[u]r

This was part of a discussion I was having with someone online about hono[u]r, and decided to post certain bits of it.

Maybe I’m jaded, but I read honor as little more than a justification of acts which aren’t really beneficial to you (but we’ll get back to this shortly)and in the aims of somebody that’s probably your boss in some way or another. I imagine what you refer to as foul are those things, like petty wars and that business about the Crusades.

The word in a way is kind of becoming synonymous with the Islamic concept of jihad; at its core, the word means "struggle" (I’d be kind of surprised if you didn’t know that, but you know, completionism etc), and the misuse of the word to justify all sorts of things has grown exponentially in the last three decades or so. Mohammad considered the internal jihad, the struggle with the self to do "good things", pray, and so on, was much more significant than the external, warring (and initially more or less righteous) and physical jihad. In a similar fashion to the Western ’concept’ of hono[u]r, jihad is used in place of the phrase "It’s in the bourgeois interest to do this" when normal motivational techniques won’t work. Here, "Freedom and democracy" have become the new hono[u]r.

I think you’re using the word honor as a characterization of acts of altruism, and that’s perfectly justified. I question the use of the word itself because I’m a prick and enjoy doing things like this and seeing how people justify things. Have you ever read/heard Richard Dawkins write/speak? (Read him write .. yeah) He’s an evolutionary biologist, but I think he’s making a lot more money these days as being a huge atheist prick than anything else. He talks (I don’t have a quote handy and I don’t have anything of his in the vicinity) about how being polite and beneficial to those around you is, from a biological standpoint, a mutually beneficial act; the hope is that you’ll be remembered for your act and, when you’re in need, the initial receiver will reciprocate. He said that it’s a bit more unclear why we do as much with people we’ve met only once and likely never will again, but I take this as an extension of the previous point, being that it tends to be an unconscious thing.

Altruism in general I find to be a bit of a farce. I like the Dawkins argument for the purpose of it biologically, but that isn’t really altruism. In order for an act to be genuinely altruistic, it cannot benefit the self. The honor that guides the hand to mend the broken bone isn’t doing it as an act to benefit only the poor guy with a broken arm, but because they’re getting a paycheck. If it occurs in an emergency situation, then the mender has two choices (provided he has the knowledge of mending a bone); he can either ignore the pain of the other man, and likely accumulate a level of guilt do to his more or less intentionally causing harm, or he can aid him, and derive a certain element of satisfaction and likely well-being. Were he doing something purely "out of the goodness of his own heart," then he would either break even in the act or suffer a consequence with absolutely no benefit. I tend to prescribe to the notion that this is impossible.